My Psyche Got Seriously Shaken-up In 2020.

Taking care of our mindset is usually the last thing on our lifelong To-Do-List. The arrival of COVID has profoundly shaken everyone; I was no exception. With a constant uprising of uncertainties in all matters (work and relationships being the biggest ones), mine collapsed.

This period was a blessing in disguise. It wasn’t possible to ignore the truth or keep the blinders on. It was time to rethink the strength of my beliefs and, significantly, how I responded to situations involving my life values. I listed them all. It was depressingly short and didn’t reflect who I felt I was in my heart. That was alarming.

In 2020, I was a massage therapist at a spa for ten years. A toxic workplace destroyed me. I tragically let it happen since I was then convinced that I couldn't find any better, or worse, that I wasn't worth better. In deep depression, I couldn't handle anything anymore: going out, being in a crowd (which was pretty small at the time), working, breathing, getting up in the morning, etc.

So, was I satisfied, happy, or fulfilled in any way? When was the last time that I answered positively to such criteria? When did I start to drift away from myself? This introspection was inevitable for my own sake. Suddenly, an intense pain suffocated my mind. Message received loud and clear!

How to Determine the State of Your Psyche?

How I Stepped Up to Fix My Mindset Before a Deeper Loss?

Since I refused to see my future self in a darker place, where I might never have come back, I took matters into my own hands for the lack of professional help availability. I embraced the debriefing phase: which was very unpleasant. Being dreadfully honest with myself is required (which we usually choose not to do). I’m sure that some of you can relate.

I needed to establish a different line of thinking for my psyche and commit to it for the future.

Eight Steps to Reset Effectively My Mindset.

To apply in order with determination and willpower:

1. I swore to love myself enough to start living according to what excites my heart beyond words. No longer I'll be seated in the passenger seat and watch passively life happening to me. It was time to take control, firmly grab that wheel, and decide where to thrive.

2. I wrote a detailed list of everything I've been passionate about since I was young. From now on, I will require my work to go as smoothly as a sailing boat. It wouldn't feel like a job because I would do what I LOVE. My heart will be fulfilled daily. That's precisely what happens when one's work is a true passion.

3. I would hold my ground no matter what my surroundings could say, think, or make fun of. Because let's be honest, some will try to make you change direction. To their eyes, following your heart is entirely bonkers. It's a classic maneuver to keep you close to their own downfall and pains. I initiated this drastic change to stop feeling so miserable. I never forget that.

4. From birth to 6 years old, we absorb like sponges any belief from our parents and surroundings, good and bad. I started to be aware of what's mine and theirs. Easy tip: if it feels right inside your body, it's yours.

       I must be frank here; it can be a tearful exercise. But it's a must to
      prevent the brain from collapsing even more. So, be patient with yourself.

5. The world all around me became buzzing on a different level. Chances are, you're going to find the journey very lonely. Not many you know will get as inspired as you were to do the same reprogramming. I certainly experienced it.

         Every day, I keep in mind and repeat my goal: LIVE THE LIFE I DESERVE.  
         Stay strong, stay focused!

6. Help your psyche to grow every day. Meditating has always done an excellent job for me, but in the past three months, I mixed up a few newly learned techniques to get the desired result. I am going deep down, connecting with my higher self.

        Explore what speaks to you the most about everything available online. I
        could guide you into what I'm doing in another post (that's the
        power of supporting each other).

7. I again became aware of my gut feelings, vibes, or inner guidance. Reconnecting with my Intuition is a big one in reprogramming my mindset. Being aware of everything I could feel (there are more ways to perceive it). Trust that it's here to help, always for the better.

By the way, Intuition never stops bringing us back on the right path. For years, fear kept me deaf to its messages. If you think about it, you probably
experienced a similar pattern.

Once I started to peel the onion, traumas kept rising to the top. I was in for the long run, so I didn't back down every time it happened (and it never really stopped). Resetting my brain means necessarily going through some heartfelt healing. It's part of the process. I love myself enough to keep moving.

Thoughts on Fixing My Psyche.

I lost myself since birth into intricate, poisonous patterns that were never mine. To fit the official guidelines (no country is different from the other), I wore several masks on top of each other, plus some blinders. I forced myself to get inside a mold, to finish bruised constantly. But I finally understood that there’s no mold to fit in.

To have a positive mindset is a long process, I won’t deny it. A journey filled with multiple hits and wins along the road. Sometimes, some failures too, but it’s all part of the process.

Looking back at where my distressed psyche was in 2020: I collapsed and started to dig its own grave. The efforts are gratifying.

So, the question could be: is reprogramming my mindset worth going through so much loss, distress, and pain? Since I’m more alive today than I’ve ever been at any given moment of my past, my answer can only be a resounding YES.

I owe myself as much and so as you!

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